Pondering Origins.

22 Dec

Where did it all begin? What was the true genesis? My family, concerened for my eternal soul and such, has obviously had some issues with my recent quest to consciously seek out my own spirituality. I have given up on explaining anything to them because they have their own ideas and I’m not trying to change them. My only concern is to transform my own mind. However I have to say their fantastical religious rantings do give me some points to ponder.

I have realized that I need to develop my own theories on the most basic philosophical questions – particularly that of human origin – in order to truly take control of my mind again, to rid myself of the beliefs embedded by my parents at an age before I was able to reason fairly. To openly claim such an extreme label requires the ammunition of words at the ready when questioned about my beliefs. I certainly do not expect anyone to agree with me but I am striving to educate myself enough to be able to engage in more intelectually stimulating conversations on such topics.

Before claiming this title, the term agnostic seemed to suit me best. It still does in some respects. I always thought the complexities of human anatomy must prove the existence of some higher power or more intelligent being(s). The universe is so vast, it seems ridiculously foolish and self-absorbed to NOT believe there are other places and things out there we have yet to discover and probably never will.

Would it be so insane to think maybe we were created, not in the Christian sense but by other means? As with religious ideals, there has been no tangible evidence that either validates or disproves. Therefore it is equally, if not more valid in my opinion. To me being created by “aliens” sounds much more plausible than being molded like clay by some guy in the sky.

My brother still considers himself Mormon. His arguments are that there is a collective consciousness and that maybe Christ is only the savior of our world but there are different gods for different planets, all under the same supreme rule. I asked him how he could be reading a Zechariah Sitchin book when he’s so fiercely religious. He says he sees the bigger picture, basically that there is more to it than what religion paints but it can all coincide nonetheless.

All I know is, god is dead. The Christian god, at least. The Bible is positively drenched in the blood of innumerable lost lives. It’s amazing to me that so many people can put so much faith, volunteer and violently snatch away so many lives over something thet merely invokes a strong “feeling”. A hunch. Or even worse yet: simply an inherited notion, a fairytale accepted unquestioningly through the ages as divine truth.

Religion is the last place I’m looking for enlightenment.


8 Responses to “Pondering Origins.”

  1. mwynne December 22, 2011 at 2:37 am #

    I’m sorry for your struggle. I ran from religion for several years myself, having been raised in a Baptist family. I wanted a faith of my own, and I was looking for facts to find it. Long story short, I found it. For me my faith in God (Father, Son, & Holy Spirit) is based on much more than a hunch. It is based on an experience. God spoke to me. He told me I only had to believe. It will probably sound crazy to you, and you might not even believe me, but when I cast my eyes upon Jesus everything fell into place. I pray that you would be able to experience Him yourself. God is truly the Father of everyone, whether we admit it our not. Unfortunately, we are separated from Him by sin. It’s the sin that creates confusion. Yet, when Jesus (God as man) came to the world as a man he paved a way for a renewed fellowship with Him. Once we accept that salvation the confusion begins to be resolved. I post this not to invoke frustration or to harass, but merely to share my own story.

    • aveverignosis December 22, 2011 at 3:57 am #

      Thank you for sharing your perspective. In all honesty I would normally totally disregard your comment because many times Jesus is presented to me in a very hostile, “Believe this or go to hell” kind of way. But since you demonstrated a tolerance rarely seen in comments such as yours, I will certainly take your words into consideration.

      However, it seems to me you represent a minority in your faith. I grew up in the deep South: the Bible Belt, and have had religion shoved down my throat in private Methodist and Christian schools, by random strangers pounding pocket Bibles and by my own kooky Mormon family my whole life. This certainly has contributed to my dissent from conventional spirituality, though as mentioned I am still sorting things out for myself.

      • Aleister Nacht December 22, 2011 at 5:39 pm #

        I believe you are on a fantastic journey but if I may, I would like to add a couple points:

        1. Religion was created by humans. Humans are flawed so transitional logic suggests religion is flawed (a=b, b=c, a=c);

        2. History speaks louder than words and the history of religion, god, Jesus, etc. is covered with the blood of innocent people (just like the victims of 911 – the bible is full of killing, raping and appalling justifications);

        3. If there was proof that there is no god, the established religions would just find another cocamamy thing to form laws around in order to control the masses.

        My opinion: stop trying to understand that which no one can prove or disprove and find yourself. You are a one-of-a-kind “God”.


      • mwynne December 22, 2011 at 5:59 pm #

        Thanks for listening! I am honored that you have taken my comment in the spirit in which it was intended. If I may, I will leave you with one final word of encouragement. Try not project your frustrations with people on to God. I’ll keep you in my prayers.

      • mwynne December 22, 2011 at 6:20 pm #

        A~N As I said above my comments were not intended as an argument, but merely to share my own story. I still do not intend to argue but I will humbly respond to your 3 points.
        1. You are absolutely correct in saying mankind is flawed. That is a result of sin. However, while man is flawed God is not. He is absolute truth. Christianity is a quest to draw closer and closer to that truth. That being said, every Christian will continue to be flawed until they reach heaven. It is only because of Jesus that we are able to embark on such a journey.
        2. You are correct once again. History is filled with all sorts of evil deeds that result from mankind’s fallen state. In fact, the Bible is a story of God developing a way of redemption from this fallen state. As I said God is perfect, man is not.
        3. Christianity does not lump itself into fellowship with all religion. Christianity is following Jesus as the only way of salvation. Consequently, Christianity stands in stark contrast to other religions. Also, not everything that is true is proved with things you can see, feel, or taste. Some things are beyond our understanding and simply require faith. That being said. My experience with Jesus is proof enough for me.
        I do not expect you to agree with my statements. And once again they are not intended as argument. They are simply a response. I do not feel cyber space is the place to have an argument. Nothing, can truly be resolved there. Therefore, feel free respond. However, I will not.
        Thanks M.W.

      • Larry Silverstein September 8, 2012 at 9:44 pm #

        Surely you are reacting to your upbringing & surroundings, as most people do all over the world. Anton LeVey’s son reacted to his father’s religion -Satanism & his surroundings. I am sure you can duplicate this scenario time & time again.

        But what I don’t understand about people like you & Aleister Nacht, is the VICIOUS hatred you have towards Jesus of Nazareth & the Crucifixion.

        Can you explain it to me? Forget about Christians, who acted like jihadist Muslims, in word & deed. What I want to know is,

        “Why do you Satanists HATE Jesus of Nazareth & His Crucifixion?

  2. Aleister Nacht December 24, 2011 at 12:31 am #

    Good points, M.W. Happy Holidays!


    • mwynne December 24, 2011 at 3:08 am #

      Happy Holidays to you too!

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